Yesterday I had a fever. It was my second fever in the past month. I think this means I am bad at not having fever.
I watched The Punk Singer on netflix. I kept thinking “I wish I was in a feminist punk band”. Then I downloaded every Bikini Kill album, and the 97 Julie Ruin self titled album, which sounds amazing so far. I think 1997 is a pretty early year to have recorded a full length of laptop bedroom pop. I got excited and downloaded every Chicks on Speed album after that. Chicks on Speed & Le Tigre were popular right when I was in college, although I am a little too young to have listened to Bikini Kill when they were still together. I now feel bad admitting that I just downloaded all this music, even though I download a lot of music, but I try to pay for music from artists from smaller record labels if they have a bandcamp or sell it digitally.
I want to pay more attention to other people’s perspectives instead of living in my own but I think it’s hard to do, I used to think a way to do this was to live in other peoples’ imaginative spaces, This is why I ask people about music they care about or try to get a sense for their aesthetic when I meet them sometimes, I’m now not sure if this is really a good strategy, but wouldn’t it be cool if that was actually how it worked?
There was a race of giants so tall that their heads pushed through the clouds & into heaven. Lots of people were offended by this, so all the kings of the 17,569,408 kingdoms of heaven & earth decided to pass a law. The law made it illegal for the giants to pass their heads through clouds. The giants said, “you’ve just made it illegal to be giants.” And all the kings and gross ruler people said, “no we just made it illegal for you to defile heaven with your gross heads.” so the rulers came up with a compromise: they would pay for the giants to have their heads removed. The giants said, “I think that’s actually a really bad idea.” But the kings and gross ruler people didn’t care because they were dicks, and they cut off all the giants’ heads anyway. There aren’t any giants anymore because giants need their heads to live. All the kings and gross ruler people are dead now too because they choked on a bag of dicks.
Every atom is a mistake
I saw a jeep grand cherokee driving by & it looked like my dad’s jeep that he drove in the 90s. There was a guy in the passenger side & he looked like me circa 2009 because he had long hair and a beard, I guess. I was confused for a moment because distinctions of self/other & time get blurred for me apparently. I just tried to remember what happened to that car & I remembered that I totaled it in 2002. I was driving to the bookstore listening to electropop with bunch of books in my car to do my homework. I made a turn & an ambulance that sped through a light hit me & I spun out and hit a divider. Then I ran out of the car to the ambulance to see if they were okay. The guy was confused because he had already pulled out “the jaws of life” because he thought I would be trapped in the car, which was crushed. Anyway what I’m saying is jeeps are really safe cars.
Every atom is a mistake
I’ve been grinding my teeth so bad that I can start to feel a pain in my jaw. I’ve been grinding my teeth for years but I only just noticed this pain. It took this long for the nerves in my mouth to realize what was happening to them.
& there are loose ends left in any life & the only option is to get up & do the work of living every day
& what is work
& what does work mean
& are you working on something
& what is your work
when i was a kid whenever i said ” I don’t know” my mom would say “well what do you know then?”
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